Saturday, February 6, 2010

Tasters, Teasers, Tidbits (take your pick)


Story starters for my advanced fiction class.



He stood up in the middle of the sermon.

This wasn't completely unusual in a congregation of 1500, but it was unusual to hear the congregant break into a rendition of "Turn Back, O Man" from the Broadway musical "Godspell," and proceed to saunter down the aisle with a kick to his hips, pointing a cruxed finger at the pastor in the universal signal for "come hither."

The pastor, surprised from his fiery sermon, had trailed off mid-sentence to stare in blank un-understanding at the heavy-set man swinging down the center aisle towards his exalted and spot-lit podium. People in the balcony craned forward or looked at the wall-sized screens on which the pastor's completely befuddled face was now being projected. A few deacons started after the man uncertainly, looking to the pastor for guidance. The show-tunes singer continued to belt in a surprisingly pleasant voice, "Turn back, O Man!" then turned to a father of four and asked, "Is your seat comfortable, sir?" followed by "Turn back, O man!" accompanied with a saucy hip-jut and "Mm, I like that," and on and on down the aisle, periodically stopping to ask parishioners borderline lascivious questions while everyone remained in the same surprised paralysis.

As he reached the first grand step leading to the raised, alter-like stage, the pastor finally found his voice and said through laser-white teeth, "Excuse me, sir, but is there something I can do for you?"





Mike wondered if he would die this time. If this time he would open his mouth, let the bubble of air hugging the back of his throat and the roof of his mouth out into the chlorinated water, and let that chlorinated water in, down to fill the gaps between his molars, push past his uvula and bathe his lungs in a burning purification.

Just as the poetry of this mental image became appealing to him, the reality of being twelve feet deep in his cousin's pool with very little oxygen left to burn terrified his gangly limbs into an ungraceful and desperate scramble to the surface. He burst through the water and nearly hyperventilated on his way to the edge of the pool where his cousin was suntanning on the diving board.

"You're not dead," she commented, crossing her legs at the ankle, causing a tiny wrinkle to occur in the pale yellow bikini.

He would have responded with something tart and acerbic, but his lungs hurt too much to speak. She laughed and turned over onto her stomach.

"Why don't you just admit you're gay? It's gotta be easier than all these half-hearted suicide attempts."

He glared at her, at her oiled legs and firm butt and willed himself to feel something that a normal fourteen-year-old boy would feel looking at such a perfect specimen of womanhood.





Sam handed Tracie the cigarette with a "God, that's rank," and sat back against the cab of the old Chevy with a shudder. The corner mart where they'd bought cigarettes since they were thirteen was out of their brand.

"How the fuck do you run out of Camels?" Sam had demanded. The clerk had shrugged and went back to the black-and-white ball-game that played on his fake security camera circuit.

"Where the hell is Ben?' Sam asked, still pissed about the cigarettes. He was serious about which brand was going to give him lung cancer.

"Said he'd be here when he was done at Molly's." Tracie took another drag. It wasn't so bad, really.

"Goddamn that girl; she's fucking corrupting him."

Tracie flicked the stub on the damp ground. "Watch your language, it makes you sound ignorant. Besides, Molly's Mormon; how's she supposed to corrupt Ben?"

"'Cuz he's not fuckin' here," Sam exploded, kicking a dead branch over the side of the truck bed. "And don't lecture me, asshole, you're starting to sound like her."

"Better to sound like her than to sound stupid."

Sam took this as an excuse to tackle Tracie off the truck.





Nathan raised his hand. It was the first day of class, five minutes into the lecture. Professor Kaley adjusted her glasses with a small frown, consulted her seating chart - what were they, in second grade? - and said, "Yes, Nathan, can I help you?"

Nathan looked straight at her breasts - they were pert still, since she was fresh out of grad school and filling in as an adjunct for the semester - and said, "Does this have anything to do with political science?"

She blinked. "Excuse me?"

Geez, this was almost too easy. "I said, does Hillary Clinton's reaction to her husband's infidelity have anything to do with the academic subject of political science?" He cocked his and let a half smile show through the disdain. "Or do you think because you're an emancipated woman you have the God-given right to bore your tuition-paying students with feminist-manifesto bullshit to convince yourself out of your own deeply-rooted feelings of inadequacy?"

She blinked again. God, was she really this slow? Nathan could have come up with a dozen biting replies by now and she just stood there looking like a perplexed cow in the slaughter line. A shapely cow with lips that looked like they were donated by Angelina Jolie, but that just proved his point even more. She had no business here. He was doing her a favor, really.




That's all I have for now. More to come as the semester wanes.

E.R. Womelsduff

Weighing the Packers



First 8 pages of a short story I'm writing for my advanced fiction class. It's a bit dark. Enjoy.


There are some people that mess with other people just because they're good at it. Veronica belonged to this category. Bored easily and just intelligent enough to disdain the educated and the ignorant with equal prejudice, she managed to amuse herself by manipulating strangers into breaking whatever sacred rule they happened to live by. Clinically, Veronica was a psychopath. Practically, she was a force of nature, a nightmare, the devil. She accepted any of the three as accurate descriptions.

This, however, was a different sort of undertaking. She normally operated on individuals, culling the sick, the young, the weak (so to speak) at the edges of the herd. But she'd done that so long now that it began to bore her. This time, she was going to take down the whole pack.
Funny. Their name was Packer.

The Packers included other Denise, father Henry, daughter Isabelle, and son Marcus. The latter two were in college, home for the summer. Isabelle was a Performing Arts major, finally aware of her lithe body and beginning to test what it could get her if she tried to use it for some off-stage visual aesthetics directed at gullible (a.k.a. all ) members of the opposite sex. Marcus studied bio-chemical engineering and was about to graduate with honors for a pre-arranged job at a prestigious pharmaceutical company. That his father owned said pharmaceutical company had nothing at all to do with his candidacy for the mid-level position.

Veronica would use Isabelle as an entry point (she could dance, too, although her training wasn't what you'd call classical ), but she'd bring them down with Marcus.

Veronica was like a serial killer in that she didn’t really care much who the Packers were. They were a name in the phonebook, an idea. They were toys. She’d always connected strongly with Geppetto as a child, rather than his doll-son Pinocchio, even more so with Stromboli who made the boy dance. Everyone needed a role model.

For this family, Veronica decided to be 20, a junior home from college, exactly between Isabelle’s 19 and Marcus’ 21. Her parents would be on an extended vacation in Europe and she’d be taking dance lessons to pass the time. Those lessons would just happen to be at the same studio as Isabelle’s. And Isabelle would just have to invite Veronica over for dinner, it was the least she could do seeing as her parents were gone and she was all alone for three long months and they could both practice together for the end-of-season recital in the mirror-covered studio that Mr. Henry Packer had built for his daughter when she was three. And if Veronica happened to show Isabelle a few techniques she’d picked up in her non-traditional dance training and if Marcus happened to be watching, well then there was no harm in---but we’re not there yet.

Denise Packer wore white. That country-club white with the pleated suburban mommy shorts and the polo and visor and slim silver watch and designer Keds and the necessary pearls at throat and wrist. She arranged flowers when she was home, and pretended to work the garden. Mr. Henry Packer always made sure the landscaping crew fixed whatever vegetables and flowers she ravaged in her delusional botanical exploits. She also enjoyed writing down her dreams and sharing them while everyone ate the breakfast that she pretended to cook while their dietician-slash-chef cleaned up in the background.

Veronica didn’t like Denise Packer.

Of course, Veronica didn’t really like anyone.

Mr. Henry Packer was also a problem. Like a roach infestation, eradication was the only possible outcome. Since Veronica was not, actually, a serial killer, mere spirit-breaking would have to suffice. Mr. Packer was a businessman---he sailed yachts and made long-distance telephone calls to Asian girls with stunted English, but for what he wanted to talk to them about, a limited vocabulary would do. Veronica understood Mr. Henry Packer in the way that a scientist understands insects. Habits, probable life-span, mating rituals, and the weakness that every creature is born with so that balance can be achieved between the species. Veronica thought of herself as a scale—she weighed the Packers and found them enticingly wanting. Veronica would bring balance.

For now, though, she would go to her first dance lesson at Madame Lacy’s studio.

“Name?” asked the receptionist, an ascetic blonde 17-year-old.

“Veronica Day,” Veronica replied. Veronica always used a different last name. Some people would ask why. She would ask why not.

“You’re in the advanced class?” the girl asked, and Veronica detected a tone of blatant skepticism. She’d been dancing professionally before this girl could jump rope. Well, professionally in the sense that she got paid. In ones, generally, but paid nonetheless.

As is the way of such things, Isabelle Packer walked through the double glass doors just then and heaved her dance bag to the high counter, sighing with the effort. Veronica liked that. It meant Isabelle’s cardiovascular system was inferior to hers. She did so like having a better heart than everyone else. There was some irony in that statement which she accepted and promptly forgot about.

“Hey Chels,” Isabelle greeted the receptionist. “What’s up?”

“Just checking in Miss Day here, for the advanced class.”

Isabelle looked at Veronica for the first time with a face so neutral it could only be hiding a primordial instinct to kill the competition. She smiled.

“You’re new?”

“I’m Veronica.”

Veronica explained, amidst the stack of papers that Chelsea kept handing her, about her parents being away and trying to see how far she could take her dancing and was she good enough to audition at Julliard, and how lonely the big house was all to herself and by the time she was finished ingratiating herself to Isabelle, they had completed their warm-ups and Madame Lacy herself had entered the room.

Isabelle was relaxed by the conversation. Veronica was careful to make her steps just clumsy enough to be slightly less excellent than Isabelle. Whenever Madame Lacy praised her on good form, she quickly and subtly did the next turn a bit off, made her movements less graceful. By the time class was over, Isabelle firmly believed she was better than Veronica and therefore had a potential new friend.

Veronica went to her motel that night satisfied. But she was also very good at her calling, and was patient with the girl. She smiled and fumbled her way through another week of classes before asking Isabelle to stay late, just a little bit, to help her with a tricky jump. She consented easily, with a genuine willingness to help, as long as it made her feel physically superior in the act of charity.

She asked for help again the next night. Isabelle now felt comfortable enough to call Veronica friend, and suggested they practice at her home studio, the studio her father built for her when she was three, because he knew his little girl would grow up to be a famous ballerina some day. Veronica, of course, said that she did not want to intrude. Isabelle said it was no problem. Veronica protested again, Isabelle reassured, and they left.

Unfortunately, Marcus wasn’t home that night. Mr. Packer was, however, and Veronica wondered how Isabelle didn’t notice the lecherous quality to the smile he gave his daughter’s new friend. Isabelle and Veronica scurried away to her not-so-humble studio toting bags of baby carrots and bottles of Vitamin Water. After an hour or two of hard work, they turned the radio on and lay on the floor, talking about dance and recitals and auditions. Isabelle drove her back to the studio and watched her get into a brand new Ferrari that Veronica had lifted just for the occasion. They waved goodbye and Veronica headed back to her motel.

They came back the next night, and the next. Veronica met Mrs. Packer, but Marcus was apparently hard at work on a project with his science buddies, and who knew when he’d be back? Intelligent men keep such odd hours.

Veronica’s car “broke down” the next night so Isabelle offered to take her home. When they arrived, Veronica suggested a tour so that Isabelle could see how much bigger Veronica’s house was. It was not, of course, her real house (on account of how much traveling she did keeping the world in balance), but it was true that the occupants were taking an extended vacation in Europe, and Veronica had picked up some home-security-disabling skills amid her adventures and planned to use the empty mansion to her advantage.

She’d set up a pole the day before in one of the many living rooms and when Isabelle asked what it was for, she said it was obvious that if a dancer was going to get anywhere these days, they had to know all kinds of dancing. Isabelle looked skeptical, but curious, and so Veronica offered to give a little demonstration. While Isabelle bumped the latest hit from her top-of-the-line iPhone, Veronica let the tousled red waves of her hair out of the staid dancer’s bun it had hitherto always been in, and slithered up to the pole. There was a light in Isabelle’s eyes that had never been quite this bright before as she watched Veronica dance in ways that she had dreamt about, but had never honestly imagined doing herself.

When she was finished, Veronica laughed and shook off the mood as easily as she’d shaken out her hair. She pinned her curls back into their proper place as if she were stitching reality back together after the foundation-shattering dance, the first in a series of initiations to come. When Veronica suggested that they go clubbing the next night since they’d been working so hard, Isabelle immediately agreed, having been saved the humiliating task of asking Veronica to teach her what she’d just witnessed.

During Madame Lacy’s classes, Veronica leveled her performance to equal Isabelle’s. Isabelle didn’t notice. Things were proceeding beautifully.

Veronica picked up Isabelle in the Ferrari after class, drove to the mansion, and spent the next few hours doing her hair and make up as well as providing her with a club-appropriate outfit and a fake I.D. stating she was over twenty-one. Veronica could tell that despite her excitement, she was nervous. She used her powers of persuasion and a shot of whiskey to calm the girl down. They got into the club without a problem and Veronica threaded them into the center of the crowd. It was obvious that Isabelle had never been to a club before, but despite her various shortcomings, she was a quick learner. Veronica teased that guys always liked it when girls danced together, so she put her arms around Isabelle’s silk-clad waist and pulled her tight. Whatever initial hesitation Isabelle may have felt vanished when she noticed the circle of guys that quickly accumulated around them. Turning in Veronica’s arms, she slid to the floor and back up, tossing her hair over her shoulder, smiling with closed lips in the universal signal for I-know-what-effect-I’m-having-on-you-now-come-closer-to-see-if-I-really-mean-it.

Two men of the dozens nearby claimed places behind Veronica and Isabelle, sliding hands across stomachs, down hips, pushing groins to buttocks in a strange parody of another act that wasn’t legal in public. Veronica made her sit down periodically to sip another martini or champagne or fruit cocktail, but not enough so that the girl would have a raging hangover the next day. They left an hour before the club closed, Veronica making sure that Isabelle got a lot of numbers, but that she didn’t give hers out. She wanted Isabelle to continue to trust her, to need her to have to fun in a way she’d always been denied before, and to do it without any immediate consequences.

Since Isabelle, was, however, drunk and underage, she texted her parents to say that she’d be spending the night at Veronica’s. When they got back to the mansion, Veronica helped her get halfway undressed before they fell into the silk sheets of the master bed, their dancers limbs tangled together in a sensually macabre pose. And because Isabelle would only vaguely remember it, and probably credit it to a dream, Veronica kissed Isabelle before the girl slid into sleep. Sensory memory was important to Veronica’s overall plan. Every fabric, from Isabelle’s club outfit to the pillowcases she was now sleeping on, had been carefully chosen for its texture, every drink for its flavor, every touch on the dance floor for its ability to send shockwaves through the nervous system.

When she woke the next day, Isabelle felt only that she had had a wonderful time, that after the initial uncomfortableness, she had felt safe and empowered, and that in Veronica she had found a lasting friend who could introduce her to things she had only ever fantasized about in passing.
Everything was unfolding beautifully.

Because Isabelle was impatient to learn, and because Veronica told her that she was getting the carpets professionally cleaned at the mansion, they practiced at Isabelle’s home studio the next night. As luck would have it, Marcus had finished with his project the day before, and was home this evening for the first time in a week. He did not usually bother his sister in her studio, but it was late at night and music was seeping from the crack in the door with a lot more bass than Isabelle’s usual soundtrack of Claire de Lune and Swan Lake.

Holding a glass of red wine (he had turned twenty-one a month before and still liked to impress upon his parents the gravity of his age by walking around the house with alcoholic beverages in hand), he nudged the door open a few more inches and was hit low in the stomach with a jolt of something he hadn’t experienced since the wildly hormonal days of puberty. A girl, tall, taller than Isabelle, thin with muscles under what looked like, in the dim light, flawless skin, wearing nothing but a white sports bra and criminally short gray cotton shorts, was spinning slowly, slowly around what looked like his old wheeled basketball hoop, except it was missing the hoop, the pole standing naked in the middle of his sister’s ballet studio. As he watched, she suddenly hugged herself to the stand and slid, breasts and hips kissing the painted metal, down to the ground, flinging her hair back, baring a throat as long and savage as Mary, Queen of Scotts’ with her eyes closed in the deceptive calm of a prayer.


The Devil's Second Best Trick

They say the greatest trick the Devil ever played
was to convince the world he didn’t exist,
but I have found his second-best trick
which is his ability to make us forget,
to get us to accept a self-centered tunnel vision
in which we are the prime and perfect player.
He sits alone in the audience, clapping
and we accept the applause, thinking we understand the ovation.

Grandmother, I’ve left you behind
to sit in your house with your piles of things,
your ancient chair that the ghost of your husband creaks
in the dead of night when you are alone;
your faded sofa-bed and your rotten citrus trees
with the cooing of a dozen quails eternal
to the image of your life;
the brides and grooms frozen in time with you;
the dust and the cable TV.

I dance. Spotlit, always; a thousand mirrors
showing me the way.

Journals filled with ideas, with woes that I’ve composed
so eloquently in my rage. You sit two thousand miles away
falling asleep in your chair to Golden Girls re-runs
and QVC commercials that you will inevitably order from.
He spins me, presses me close, whispers
words that amount to “The show must go on,
you have something to offer this world,
your wit, your face, go on, go on, dance”
so that I work, twirl blind, and forget
to remember that I miss you. You,
who are my beginning.

Because I am beautiful, I delete the e-mails you forward
without reading them, and shake my head
at the Christmas Shoes DVD still shrink-wrapped,
and the odd sweaters. I forgot the dimple
in your cool cheek, the one I reached up to kiss
when I was small enough to reach up.

I owe you my mother.
I owe you endless summers, I owe you the sunshine
on the kool-deck and the shade from the grapefruit trees
and the tales I never asked you to tell.
I fill my journals with stories about people like me,
about me, write scripts he says will change the world,
when your life is waiting inside you for me to discover.

I am sorry.

You are beautiful. I remember you.




Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Daisy Chain

I, like a schoolgirl, stack up the details into columns,
pulling petals off daisies - he loves me
he loves me not - and round and round we go
and the petals simply continue to grow
and I keep pulling promises off,
he loves me so,
he loves me not.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Justice Is (an observer's report)

Justice is
a chance for introverts to bitch and moan
breathless cries into the tinny microphone;
nervousness fluttering the prompt paper,
vacillating like a hummingbird’s wings,
cracked pubescent voices convincing themselves into a crescendo of sound,
words, but nothing.
“Oh! Thank God, he’s so good!”
Skinny white girl with glasses - most likely braces, too - strums
three chords on an acoustic.

Almost too easy to mock, this blind earnestness. At least they are earnest. Isn't that commendable? I come with my own set of biases.

“That was a very inspiring reading,” says the
latina valley-girl (yay melting pot?), followed by
White V-Neck So-Cal Boy articulating
too accurately for pseudo-rap -
don’t use the word “myopia,” I would warn him,
this crowd won’t understand.

Everyone here has long hair and mustaches.
They speak in inclusive plurals - “let’s be the voice,
let’s change the world.”
Talk about greed about food about women,
talk too fast and don’t breathe so we don’t know what you’re saying,
just that you are.

The word “vagina” pulls applause
because it’s a Christian crowd and this pleases their religious youth.

“They’re trying to make sense of it all”
is the only line that’s said anything.
Logic is not in the cry, but the whisper. Do not wail,
sigh.
The crowd snaps like Beatniks. It is a "coffeehouse."

Dramatic pauses between lines of Jesus Loves Me,
tells his own story as if he’s the third person,
dyed hair, eyes that don’t blink like some deranged hawk,
makes volunteers take his shoes. What?
Yes, take his shoes.
Pretends to sob, screams “Jesus loves me!”
a demon-possessed Elmo doll;
has someone spit on him for emphasis,
rips the paper in half and storms off-stage.

Best of the night, quite seriously:
“I gotta go out, but I don’t have an outfit,
why do we proclaim what we stand for
when this is what we dance for?” referring to the content
of club songs which we, the objectified, ironically grind to,
projecting back the image we disdain.
I sense a point, finally, and think it's high time but it is

unfortunately followed by

a singer so bad that even this sensitive crowd
can’t help but snicker. We are cruel
even at our gatherings of compassion.
I smile at the sound guy. We’re paid to be here,
we’re allowed to smile.
Didn't want to post this, didn't want to write this
but the night could have been good for so much more.
It wasn't the lack of artistry that forces me to criticize,
but the lack of thought. My fingers are irritated.

The cellist is good, though. The only verbally silent one. Go figure.

Bad Mexican rapper (I only mention it because he makes
his race an issue in his rap)
who speaks in embarrassed stereotypes.
Girl preaches black power and looks like a white supremacist.
Unless, of course, she has cancer, and then we’re just jackasses
for assuming.

Choppy sentences. Ugh. Just breathe, people.

The last song doesn’t have anything to do with justice, which is pretty funny.
A-do-do do-do-do do-do-dooooo.....

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Verbal Appetizers

More story starter tidbits for my advanced creative writing class. Enjoy.



"You can't put that!"
"Says who?"
"Guys, this isn't, like Scrabble. Just put something down and give it to the dealer."
"Who's dealer this round?"
"Marie."
"Can I mention ducks?"
"Well, you could, but then we'd know it was you."
"Oh. Right."
"What's the category again?"
"Things Jesus Never Preached."
"Ha! I got something."
"I have a feeling this is going to turn dirty."
"Dude. What round hasn't been dirty?"
"Good point."
"Jason, hurry up man, you're last in."
"Give me a freaking second - Jesus preached on freaking everything."
"You seriously can't come up with something he wouldn't have preached about? Oh, that's right, I forgot - you're a Man-Nun."
"I am not a Man-Nun. Here's my answer."
"All right, 'Things Jesus Never Preached.' We got 'Cannibalism is only frowned upon, not expressly forbidden.' And 'If someone strikes you, turn the other cheek and ask for another.' I know who wrote that one. 'The medicinal properties of weed,' and lastly 'How to Pray Over Irregular Bowel Movements.' Real classy, people."



There are some people that mess with other people just because they're good at it. Veronica belonged to this category. Bored easily and just intelligent enough to disdain the educated and the ignorant with equal prejudice, she managed to amuse herself by finding the Rule that her victims lived by, working tirelessly to subvert the Rule, making her victims break their Rule, and then leaving them with no instructions as to what to do next.

This, however, was a different sort of undertaking. She normally operated on individuals, manipulating the sick, the young, the weak (so to speak) at the edges of the herd. But she'd done that so long now that it began to bore her. This time, she was going to take down the whole pack.

Funny. Their name was Packer.

The Packers included Mother Denise, Father Henry, Daughter Isabelle, and Son Marcus. The latter two were in college, home for the summer. Isabelle was a Performing Arts major, aware of her lithe body and beginning to test what it could get her if she tried to use it for some off-the-stage visual aesthetics directed at gullible (a.k.a. "all") members of the opposite sex. Marcus studied bio-chemical engineering and was about to graduate with honors for a pre-arranged job at a prestigious pharmaceutical company.

Veronica would use Isabelle as an entry point (she could dance, too, although her training wasn't what you'd call "classical"), but she'd bring them down with Marcus.



She slept on the stairs. She fell asleep on the grass. You were always looking at her through the cross-latices of the white-painted porch rail - constantly framed, protected by archways and geometry. Stars and moons and signs didn't affect her, but math and wooden beams took it upon themselves to look after her Michaelanglic slumber. Waking, she had to move, and they could do nothing.

There was a dragon in the house. Inanimate objects weren't much good against dragons, and the little princess, sleeping or waking, couldn't be expected to defeat the thing, not and remain a princess. She would have to change irrevocably, and that just would not do.

Liza, that was her name. What a name. Spiderwebs and lace.

The doorways watched her wake, watched her yawn, watched the dragon come down the stairs, the castle-usurper, the wrong prince. He held out her hand placed the white in it, waiting, watching. Why? For what purpose? The doors didn't understand. They were just doors, opening and closing, opening and closing.

Liza went blank. This was not asleep and not awake and the whole house, all that math, didn't like her like this.



There is a formula - thank God - and if you follow it, you will lead a Good and Successful Life.

First, you are born. You have a cheerful mother and a loving father who works nine-to-five, but is home often enough to go to your little league games or your dance recitals. You are soon joined by a little brother and sister who adore you. Your parents put you in a private school where temptation of any sort is strictly prohibited. You graduate with honors and go to Calvin or Dordt or Moody and meet the girl or guy of your dreams and get engaged the spring of your freshman year. You get married and have Christian sex which immediately produces offspring. You graduate with a degree in Bible. Your firstborn takes his first step and you rand your spouse are thrilled. You work in non-profit missions. You retire. You die. You go to Heaven.

Unfortunately, this formula is deceptively hard to follow.

Your father messes up and misses a game. You go to a state school where someone with Pi Delta Pi stamped on their forehead teaches you about temptation and you have non-Christian sex all night long. You graduate with a degree in Underwater Basket Weaving, or maybe you don't graduate at all.



He deals in chocolate. Framboise torte, gushing raspberries. Cappuccino cream cake meant for the tongue, not the teeth, that you push through and sigh. Coco-dusted truffles, no grain, a smooth illumination, the kind of thing you eat with your eyes closed.

Two buttons undone on the chef's jacket, as always. I don't know how there's time for me to observe him, to learn, to watch his wrists manipulate copper pots and flame-filled pans.

He stands behind me. Rests his left hand on mine, on the counter, on the cutting board. Chestnut creme roll - sliced thing to appreciate the intensity. Chocolate profiterole - I have to whisk constantly to remove all the lumps from my throat. I have to thrash my pulse back into place, mix constantly. Black-and-White Paves - they say you have to be patient and wait for the exact right moment before you pour (your heart out) the layers of chocolate.

He lays his right hand on mine, slowly moving each of my fingers to the correct position on the knife; so close I can feel his white coat against my apron.

L'etoile.

He pushes down on my hand against the fruit, slicing through skins and juices, taller than me, cradling me between his body and the counter.

Buches de Noel. Swollen with mousse, buttercream.

He tells me to lean back until my spine touches his hand, then turns my shoulders gently so that the angles are all right. Puts his hands back on mine to remind me why he's there. How is there time for this? Learning, the restaurant owner said. He's here to teach me. Definitely here to teach me something.

Wish I could look at him. Can't. Just stare at his hand enclosing mine and breathe in the scent of chocolate, years of chocolate, his hands patiently drawing it into whatever he wants it to be.



"I don't want to go."

It was useless saying it, but if she didn't try, it would be the same as losing. Resisting verbally put them, in her mind, at a stalemate. She could live with that, for now.

Still, she didn't see the point. She didn't even have a date. The only reason she was going was because Sarah wanted to go and Sarah didn't have a date, either. And once Melissa heard she was going to Prom, the big-sister-alarm went off and she insisted on dragging Brittany to the mall for a haircut and some highlights and a manicure and pedicure and a dress and a bag and shoes and earrings and a necklace and rings and bracelets and it was all ridiculous because she didn't have a date.

But Melissa was working on that, too. She kept babbling on about this guy from work, Craig, a college boy, but only a sophomore so it wasn't too weird if he took Brittany and all Brittany could think was that Craig sounded like such a deutsch name and he probably wore pastel polos and pretended to be straight and she'd have to show up at Prom with a gay guy in a lilac tux.



Films are fragile things. So many egos, so much pride to pander to. The money, the investors, the studio, the director, the above-the-line actors, the agents, the phone calls, the writers and the rewrites and the yapping about the integrity of the script and the incredibly fragile balance of it all. It was remarkable that films ever got made.

It was also a wonder that anyone in Hollywood got married. The average for an A-list anything was three divorces and a smattering of bitter, pill-popping kids who spent the majority of their time in psychiatrists' chairs dealing with the pressure of being So-and-So's kid.

This couple were on their third and second marriages, respectively. She was the director, he was the star, and they'd hooked up on her last feature before he'd hit it big playing the quirky but lovable best friend that the heroine realizes she's in love with after all, but only as she's walking down the aisle towards the schmuck with the neon-white smile who's secretly banging the not-so-maidenly Maid of Honor.

It was a sleeper hit and they made money. And in Hollywood, money is love, so they got hitched.



That's all for now. Next step is to pick one of these and develop the first three pages for a short story. I'll keep you posted.

- E.R. Womelsduff




Friday, January 22, 2010

Mr. Monopoly Man

(lyrics, perhaps)

Hey Mr. Monopoly man, playing by yourself in that box of sand,
You’re the banker, the race-car, the parking lot collector
and you pat yourself on the back when you pass Go,
you’re far past rich and you don’t even know.
That’s funny, right? ‘Cuz you really don’t know.

Hey Mr. Monopoly man, you’ve got the corner on the market
you tell everyone to park it
looking at the world through a two-way mirror
no one sees in, they just want to shatter the glass.
I want to shatter the glass.

Hide your eyes behind a question, make me pay your fine.
But I’m broke, don’t you know? I haven’t got a dime,
and I’m sure you’re willing to extend a line of credit
so I’m more indebted to you every time I try.

Mr. Monopoly Man you’ve got your own agenda in hand
written on the palms, burned in so you can’t ever forget
to focus, don’t consider other options
you’re the one man that can be an island and damn
you want the rest of us to know it.

If this is your version of a dream, that’s fine, just explain to me
what the vision is because right now you’re walking blind
and you said yourself that there isn’t much time,
we’ve got this life to live and I wish the glass was breakable
because shattering it might do you some good,
you should let me try to break the glass,
you should not pass Go, you should not collect the cash,
you should stay in jail and feel captive
like I am captivated by your eyes, by the glossy glassy lies
you feed me so sweetly with that million-dollar smile,
Mr. Monopoly Man, goddamn you, sir,
you’ve got the market, you’ve got the whole damn street
and my feet are not fast enough to outrun your prices
and my heart is not enough to pull you through the looking glass.
Guess this is what they call an impasse
and you can kiss my bank-broke ass,
but ah, you can’t, ‘cuz you’re behind the glass,
behind the painted glass.


by E.R. Womelsduff